I aspire to be kind.
Not the kind of kind that takes effort. But the kind of kind that is effortless, natural, pure and real and selfless.
Until today, I was under the impression that I have been kind lately. But I realized I had kind of, sort of, maybe been forcing it. Trying to be kind. And trying to be kind is not being kind.
I get so caught up sometimes. Caught up in trying to maintain this ideal self, instead of letting myself be who I AM. Caught up in trying to inspire people, instead of actually living an inspiring life. Caught up in my own little mental melodrama. Yes, I am human too… and I struggle with keeping my mind calm, my breath focused, my heart open.
It’s okay to remember that you are a student. I AM a student, and I will be for as long as it takes me to learn this great lesson. I retain hope, as I have glimpsed the answer times before; but to actually remain living in the present every moment is the greatest challenge. It’s all we will ever be.
Now, after some quiet reflection, I am giving myself permission as the student and as the teacher, to let it all go. To breathe. To surrender to this very moment, every moment, for as long as I can.
That’s all you and I and everyone else can ever do. It’s that simple. It’s that hard.
So I guess I will get back to where I started, and bring this circle to a close. Kindness.
I realized today the importance of genuine kindness. We are all going through the same thing inside, and all facing the same challenges outside. All anyone on this entire planet wants is to feel better, feel cared for, feel SAFE.
I beg of you, and I pledge this myself, to be truly, whole-heartedly, selflessly kind to every being, including YOUR SELF. Let all else go. And then, just show up… show up open. Show up kind.
“Living well is no grand gesture. It is waking up. Trying to be reasonable and kind. It is making a phone call, a loaf of bread, a visit, a bowl of soup. It’s going easy on yourself so you can go easy on everyone else. It’s having faith because really we have no other option in this life. There is little we can control, and so we must let go and live with faith that somehow, come what may, we’ll make it.”
– Beth Kirby