Just DO it. Well, okay.
So here I sit. Just doing it. Making myself tell a story.
Shamelessly scantily clothed, room a bit of a mess, slouched on my bed with a beer on my side table, and computer in my lap. But the most important scene setter: the books all around me. On my bed, on both my side tables, on my window seal, on my dresser, in my closet. Books. My day job: a sales associate/future barista at a bookstore. And not just a bookstore, but the bookstore. The only bookstore in this town. Legends.
I am surrounded by books. It’s a dream come true! And I once again have the time to actually read these books. Reading — that’s one portion of my “am doing” list.
Another thing I am doing is photographing. Letting this longtime passion of mine take me wherever it will. It’s such a beautiful & expressive medium & I feel ever fortunate that there actually exist people who care to see them. It’s wonderful! It fills my heart.
Speaking of heart filling… Yoga. I teach three yoga classes a week & I am so in love with it. When I look back on my journey over just the past year, this was hardly even a dream of mine. It was just a thought. It was a question. There was no yoga studio in town, so Virginia and I just asked “why not us?” And less than a year later, here we are. Living in this beautiful town, full of amazing people. And I get to show up to an incredible studio & guide my students through a practice, a dance, a meditation.
I have never had this much confidence in my life. I have been reserved, insecure, quiet & observant of others. But I finally found my voice again. A voice I had lost track of for some time. And I realized just how precious our voice is. We are all experiencing this life in totally unique ways, & the only way to share is through expression. Our expression, our story, our voice… these are things no one else on this planet will ever be able to replicate precisely. And on top of all this… I realized how much other people WANT to hear your story.
I am continually blown away when someone tells me they actually read what I write. I think that’s the reason I forget how important it is to share.
I began to feel like people only wanted to hear my story whenever it was something crazy, something adventurous, something out of the ordinary. So when I started living a more “normal” life, I figured people wouldn’t want to hear about that boring stuff! But now I see my life in a different light, and it’s not boring at all!
I am living the best years of my life. I am living them as best I know how.
The only things I know I have to do for sure is to be open, to be present, to be kind, to say no sometimes, to say yes more, to treat my body well, to be in nature, to feel wild & free & beautiful. These are the things that bring joy. These are the things that bring fulfillment & abundance & miracles. These are the things that bring love into life.
And love is all we are ultimately seeking, is it not? I know I am. I have begun to love all souls in ways that I can’t really even explain. I have been blessed with such wonderful friends & family & followers, & my heart is so full with love for all of you.
But if you, like me, are single… ready to find a partner… just looking for someone who treats you well, who looks into your eyes & sees your soul, who will only lift you up & help you grow into your highest self every day… if you’re like me, you are a little bit lonely sometimes. You are surrounded by couples, babies, families & can’t help but feel a little ache. You are wondering “is there something wrong with me?” Is there a reason this amazing person hasn’t swept me off my feet yet?
And the answer is yes, there is a reason. You, my darling, still have to grow a bit more before you can have all that good stuff. You have to be honest with yourself & ask who will love you if you don’t first love yourself? You can dream up your ideal partner, but at the end of the day… no one is going to treat you better than you treat yourself.
With that in mind… if you are currently single, this simply means that you have more love to give to more people. You are blessed with time to hang out with a variety of individuals, all of whom are bringing so much goodness into your life. Take time to value your friends. Take time to spend with your family. And take time to yourself. If I don’t have regular alone time to collect myself, to meditate, to veg out – I would go crazy. I would be totally off balance. So I know I have to learn the balance, practice being open to love, & simply surrendering to change. Everything will change.
Everything, but your true I AM.