What do you want?
Honestly, just answer that one question right now.
What do you want?
To get anywhere in life we have to make choices.
We have to set our intentions. We have to commit to something.
Or else we go nowhere.
We stay in this static state of indecisiveness.
This state of a certain discontent that comes from not being committed to anything. Not having a clear intention. And not making the choice to improve.
So the question comes, what do you want? And the answer can be within limitation or you can dare a little & reach for something you’ve only dreamt up in your wildest imagination.
If you choose to dare a little, great – we’ll continue.
I want to take myself more seriously. To expand my curiosity and knowledge. To dive deeper into my yoga practice. To be dependable in my work. To be impeccable with my word. To maintain the energy to radiate love into the world wherever I go. I want to begin imagining again. Creating for the sake of creating.
And now comes the second question: what are you willing to give up to attain what you want? What are you ready to let go of?
Maybe it’s physical. Maybe it’s emotional. Maybe it’s a symbol. A relationship or two, a job, envy, inadequacy, not taking care of yourself, low-frequency thoughts, neglecting the value of your word, your conception of yourself. Whatever it is, maybe it’s one thing or maybe it’s twenty, seriously make the decision to let that go. Right now.
Physically feel it moving out of your body. Out of your heart, leaving it feeling light. Out of your lungs and your throat, leaving you able to breathe. Out of your sights, so you can see clearly. Out of your thoughts, so you can imagine new & wonderful visions for yourself.
And breathe into the comfort of having made a healthy & intentional choice for yourself. Breathe into all that space you just created. Space for potential. Space for growth. Space for love. Space to conceive something greater than you’ve known in the past.
Now that you have made the resolution, it’s time to work at it.
Yeah, there is definite effort involved.
Here’s what you do:
You show up every day. You put in sufficient time & energy & effort. You start taking yourself & those around you more seriously. And you do all of this with a light heart. You enjoy every minute of it. You absolutely respect where you are, how far you’ve come, because this is the path & when you stop & look around, things are pretty good, right? Things are probably much better than your ego would like for you to realize.
This cycle that I had talked about in my previous entry of which I have been captive to for quite some time, had a lot to do with the fact that I could never quite commit.
To anything, really.
I worked seasonally for years & years, no job lasting longer than six months. Not staying in the same place for longer than six months. Never wholly letting anything or anyone in. Not really taking responsibility for my own dedication. Remaining pretty loosely tied so that I might be able to flit away when I felt it suited me best.
I have been less than impeccable with my word and it’s mainly because I want to say “yes” to every single prospect. I can’t help it, I want to do it all. I want to be a yoga instructor and student and chef and bookstore clerk and adventurer and writer and blogger and photographer and homesteader and painter and musician and seriously the list goes on and on and on. I say “yes” because I genuinely want to devote time to all of these affairs, but there are only so many hours in a day & the days are growing shorter with the season.
So I get myself involved in many different undertakings all at once & soon learn that I can’t excel in any of them. And the key is coming to the realization that yes, I am interested in many different activities and jobs and hobbies and arts, and there will come a time in my life for all of them, just not all at once. It’s okay to take life one step at a time, in fact, it’s imperative. We have to be able to focus single-pointedly, even for just a minute, or else we will never gain enough mental strength to excel. In anything.
Making enough time in my life to quiet down so I can really see these patterns & flaws in the way I have been living has been a major wake up call.
I am ready to keep my word. To follow through. To be dependable. To be committed. To be devoted. And I am ready to let go of being childish (different than childlike). I am ready to let go of relationships with people who I have been clinging to because they have made me feel better, despite not being healthy whatsoever. I am ready to let go of a low concept of myself. I am ready to let go of doubt & fear & insecurity.
Are you ready? Ready for what you want? Ready to give up habits no longer serving you? Ready to step up to the next level where living fearlessly is not the goal, but rather living courageously? Living authentically? Living with intent?
If you have made it this far, I think you are.