Last night I stayed up late, sitting under the stars & full moon, drinking wine & smoking & playing music & practicing yoga with a few of my best friends.
Spencer, Justine & John are some of the most incredible people I know.
We dropped the god awful small talk we all despise. Moved past the “how was your day?” and the “what do you do?” type questions & reached for something deep.
I asked them for truth. I asked them to tell me what I needed to hear.
And this is what I got…
MOVE. Decide what it is you want to do & go for it. Stop hiding. Stop running. Find something you are passionate about & delve into the abyss of it.
FOCUS on your physical body. Treat yourself lovingly & without judgement. Nourish yourself & work through the blockages you feel physically so you can unblock mentally.
Sit quietly with yourself & check in. See how you are actually feeling inside & be with that. REFLECT. Ask yourself what you want & do not be afraid of it.
Meditation is imperative to well-being, to being well.
They gave me a boost of confidence. They gave me unconditional love & acceptance. They showed me aspects of myself I most needed to see, the ones I am most insecure about & challenged me to change.
Life isn’t always rainbows & butterflies & sunflowers & sunshine.
Sometimes everything has to fall apart & get so damn messy before it can be rebuilt & brought to order again.
Right now it seems like a lot of things in my life are falling apart.
My van broke down. My bike tires deflated this morning. My bank account is empty. And I don’t have a physical place to confidently call home right now.
It’s frustrating & really testing my patience. It’s really causing me to pinpoint the aspects of my life that need work.
It is causing me to choose which direction I want to move in.
And I am learning it doesn’t matter so much what direction you go in.
It just matters that you go in any direction at all.
When I have too many options, I freak out & don’t know which way to go. I get overwhelmed by all the things I could do & just want it all at the same time. But it doesn’t work that way.
The most important decision you could make is not what to do with your life, but what to do with your life right now. Just choose one thing to pursue. One project, one job. And do that one thing with all your energy. Make it the best you possibly can & cut yourself slack when you fall short or mess up or fail miserably. At least you tried.
Trying is all you can do.
Showing up & doing your work every single day is all you can do.
That’s what writing this is about for me – showing up to my work. Committing to a daily practice. Deciding to do something & just doing it.
So what is it that you want to do?
What are you willing to show up to every day?
What are you willing to give up?
What aspects of yourself are you willing to change?
How much will you break open before you decide to grow?
What are you most passionate about?
What can you do to help yourself thrive?
Take the time to sit quietly by yourself & reflect on one of or all these questions.
Take time to breathe.
Take time to feel.
Do not be afraid of whatever answers come up.