I was two & a half the first time I ran away from home & made my way to the carnival that was passing through town. I don’t remember what I saw or who I met, but my mom tells me I came back hand in hand with a gentle woman who I am sure now was a guardian angel.
25 years later… I am once again running away from home to go find the circus & one day be a brilliant performer myself!
My elephant bank held coins & paper stowed away for a special occasion & cashed in to be the exact amount needed to buy a one-way ticket to Kauai.
I jumped off the cliff of comfortability & am praying I have wings as strong as I think I do to allow me to FLY!
“You are crazy.” “This is insane.” “This is dangerous.” “How will you make money?” “Where will you sleep?” “What will you eat?” “You mean you don’t have a PLAN?”
“This one life is all I have.” “I am doing this for myself.” “This is my dream.” “I will be provided for in abundance.” “I will always be guided & protected.” “I surrender to the unknown.”
My mind is a bloody battlefield right now with shots firing from both sides. As the time moves closer to leave (nine days & counting) I feel the courageous & brave & peaceful warriors gradually overcoming the fearful & anxious & societally conditioned ones.
Maybe we are all often at war with ourselves.
Wanting & repressing. Opening & closing. Believing & doubting. Going forth & staying hidden away.
I am here to simply say to you… just do it.
Whatever dream it is you have held deep in your heart & keep convincing yourself of all the reasons why you shouldn’t. You should. There is no time to waste. There is risk of failure & embarrassment & death in our daily lives anyway, so shouldn’t the risk be taken on something you truly love?
You deserve to do what you love.
You deserve to be who you want to be.
You deserve to live the life of your dreams.
There is no ONE WAY to do life correctly.
That’s why we are all here, living life in beautifully endless possibility. Just follow your inner compass & go YOUR WAY. Find the next cairn & move closer toward it with each breath. When it comes time, jump off the cliff no matter how massive, how wild, or how psycho it seems.
Remember, at least you’re not that crazy girl who wants to run away & actually join the circus. Or maybe you are… if so, I’ll see you under the big top!