A now cold cup of afternoon maca & cardamom coffee sits in front of me while I do what I have become most professional at – procrastinating! Not procrastination in the form of not doing anything… rather, by putting off until every single detail of everything I am about to share is perfect.
And guess what? It’s not even close!
To say the least, this past year has been one of overwhelming change & intense wake-up calls.
It’s been the ‘year of new beginnings’ I so naively asked for in 2017.
Structures I was so firmly rooted in began to crumble.
Relationships I thought I couldn’t live without dissolved & guess what –
I’m still alive!
I moved like seven times & was legit homeless for two months.
I almost drowned in the Snake River & nearly froze in the Wind Rivers.
I broke free out into new territories & vast wildernesses of the world & my Self, afterwards returning more lost than before.
The past month in particular has been filled with more anxiety, lostness, drastic highs & lows than I ever thought possible to experience. All happening within the confines of my current bedroom/studio/office/sanctuary – my parent’s garage.
To combat this mental upheaval, I have poured everything I have into creation as my only saving grace.
Creating what exactly?
Mostly shit. Mostly pages & pages full of dreams & goals & intentions I have been rewriting word for word for the past three years without much follow through.
Some cards & jewelry & fermented food.
And now it’s time to come out with this sweet little creation egg I have been too chicken shit to hatch for fear of it not yet being everything I know it will be. The best time to start is now, right?
Cream ‘n Greens
What is Cream ‘n Greens? Let me tell you!
It’s my new “personal brand” (because I guess that’s the hip thing to have these days).
It’s essentially still me, my voice, my style, my passions, my art, my life… all rolled into a cohesive ball of fermented dough & so much other yummy stuff!
It is about making mundane, day-to-day routine experiences into sacred ritual.
Making each sip, each bite, each breath an adventure.
It is local. It is organic. It is raw. It is homemade.
It is about presence & being with ourselves exactly as we are.
It is about the art of living & figuring out how to do it best for me & sharing when I find what works well.
It is the idea that we are all creators & artists & sculptors & story-tellers of our very own masterpieces.
It is a plant-based cooking service in the heart of beef country.
It is about celebration, inspiration, sustainability, nourishment, abundance, forgiveness, authenticity, vulnerability, connection, community.
It is intentional gatherings, retreats & workshops. It is yoga.
It is my own accountability & responsibility to live the life of MY dreams.
It is never finished. Always evolving. Always growing.
It is the beginning of something new that was always there.
It is as simple as a black cup of coffee & as complex as a 60-hour sourdough loaf.
So…as of now… I don’t have a website or a new blog for it (because, well, that shit takes money & I am raking it in slow these days!)
There is still much to be developed. But be sure it is coming soon!!!
I have a few more posts coming at you from lovebaresall, and then will make the emotional switch over. Thank you for being a follower of my journey & for tuning into my stories – I hope you will continue to follow as the chapters expand & the plot deepens.
Much love & warmth to you!